Sometimes Life Is Bigger Than My Ass

05/09/2011 10:56

The pity party is officially over.  The last week and a half has been a roller coaster- a stomach virus, a missed walk, broken children...Well, the stomach virus that caused me to miss the 5 mile walk last Saturday was actually a blessing in disguise, since I later found out that my former boss was there, and we didn't end things on the best terms (a story for another time).  Anyway, my stupid weak ankles gave out on Monday, which caused me to drop my 2yo, resulting in her left foot enclosed in a pretty purple cast.  It seriously has taken me a week to let go of any of the guilt I have about that- a miniscule reduction, mind you, but slowly I am forgiving myself.  She already has, although she does white knuckle my neck every time I pick her up now.

So, how did I deal with all of this?  Well, I'd like to say I handled it like a champ, exercising away my sorrow, and eating healthy so I would feel better. But I would be lying.  I wasn't as horrible as I would hve been, say 2 months ago, but I did indulge in every oreo ice cream treat that every fast food joint has to offer- McFlurry, Frosty, and Blast. (Damn, why isn't there a Dairy Queen closer to us???)  I also had a couple of burgers and fries, but my indiscretions were all dinners, and I had eaten beautifully throughout the day, so all of this resulted in a 0 pound weight gain.  Thank goodness for that.  Oh, and I can't even discuss the soda intake.  Let's just say that my kidneys are breathing a sigh of relief this mornig, as I've already begun flushing them out with tons of H2O.

I didn't exercise a lick during this time, so the 6am alarm this morning almost...ALMOST...was ignored.  I knew I would feel guilty, and my body is at its guilt capacity, so I dragged my butt out of bed, put on my gear, and started a 5k walk/jog program for beginners.  It starts off slowly with 4 minutes of walking followed by 1 minute of jogging for a total of 25 minutes.  Then I walked the rest of the way home, so it only took about 32 minutes total.  I did 2 miles in all, so it was about a 16 minute mile, which was impressive for me for being off for so long. Before this whole mess started, I did do the first ChaLean Push Circuit, which I like sooooo much more than Burn.  Why?  It's simple- no lunges!  I hate those damn things.  I never feel like I'm doing them right, and I (obviously) have the balance of an elephant on a tightrope, so I'm going to have to figure out a substitute for them if they reappear in the Lean Circuit.  I'm going to restart Push tomorrow and use it as my strength training.  I'm also going to do 5 days of cardio, with 3 of those being the 5k training thing.  Notice I say "going".  I really wanted to say "try", but that's the thinking that's gotten me into the shape I'm in now.